Wednesday, May 06, 2009

April Showers

Or should I say MAY showers! My yard is looking like a jungle from not having a dry day to mow it. But the blessing is that the frequent rain means the water table is rising and perhaps we will not be in drought conditions this year.

I apologize to those who check my blog every now and then and find I am not posting as often as I used to. God has been working on me. Blogging is one of my lowest priorities right now! This is why I really like the "follow" option that Blogger has, because when I DO post, followers immediately know.

Sunlight on the kitchen table.

Let's see, what to report?

Ah, a big deal for me is that I am eating less and losing some weight. I have lost 15 pounds over the past three months. It's hard for others to tell yet. Only my sister-in-law has noticed because she hadn't seen me in a long time. Today was supposed to be my first day to add exercise to my daily schedule, but schedules and my life rarely match up. Then I read this in my scheduled reading this morning:

"For bodily exercise profiteth little: but godliness is profitable unto all things, having promise of the life that now is, and of that which is to come." 1 Timothy 4:8

Ummmm.... do you remember that song from "The Color Purple"... "God is Trying to Tell You Something"?

What did I end up doing instead of my exercise that was scheduled between 6:30 and 7:30? Catching up on what I was scheduled to do between 5:30-6:30. (I am laughing and shaking my head.) Instead, it was lain on my heart to write a message to my son about another Bible verse I read this morning.

All I can say is that when He wants you to do something for Him, one has little excuse of "but it doesn't fit into my schedule!" The only schedule these two keep is to fuss if they aren't fed by 6:30 a.m.!

Speaking of my son, he is still living in the next county over with his girlfriend's family and working a fast-food job. He is still hoping to be accepted by Western Kentucky University for this Fall, but if you would lift him up in prayer... I have seen that he is nervous about the uncertainty of his future and (after this morning's letter to him that felt like God's hand on his future) he needs prayers for protection, direction, and his walk. It just simply feels and looks like God is getting ready to move in his life in a mighty way, to provide him with a chance, an opportunity, and he is at a crossroads that might greatly affect his Christian life and his chance to be blessed. But, he is doing well and visiting more often.

But we did recently have "the talk" - the one where we actually put into words what each of us already knew: this is now his parent's home, and what was once his room is now a guest room where he is welcomed as a guest at any time.

It wasn't as hard as I thought it would be. And he accepted it too. But I still haven't touched his room. Uh.... I mean, the guest room/school room/library.

Daughter is growing tall, a good 5 inches or more taller than me now and she's only 12! She now has someone whom she calls a best friend, another home-educated girl. And finally, she loves to read when she hated it before. All these things feel like true blessings.
Daughter walking along the big popular tree Hubby cut down this Spring, due to it's age and it's shading the garden spot.

I, on the other hand, have recently been feeling the need to withdraw into my home, my farm, my work, my mission, my blessings, to the things that God calls me to put my hand to at home. Of course, what I mean is that my priorities are calling. This has left me a little sad - because I had hoped to be developing relationships with new friends. Unfortunately, the timing seems bad for them also, having other things to do and interests that have called them to different paths than the one I'm on. I don't resent it. I am glad for their blessings as I am for mine. I have been experiencing a time of growth in this relationship with Christ and becoming bolder in that walk.

I have been reading a lot of gardening technique books and making plans, both short-term and long-term, for a large yard that is completely garden and walkways. And I am studying about greenhouses and chickens. And wildflowers and native plants and trees.
I'm slowing working on the flower beds in front of the porch.

And it is my goal to pinch every penny to apply extra principal to our mortgage. Instead of being 70 when our house is paid of, we COULD be 55 and save over $56,000 in interest. That's a big difference! How nice would it be to know I saved us $56K and freed up 15 years in which to use our blessings to help our own children and grandkids instead of scraping by for ourselves?!!!
Line-drying the clothes saves us $40+ a month. Just don't hang your hummingbird feeder on the porch with the clothesline!

So, I am now being very frugal by planning weekly menus, home-cooking everything, learning how to provide our own cheaper yet healthier foods, and looking at our long-term goals even more than ever. This can leave one feeling a bit odd in today's society, a bit isolated, a bit lonely at first. But this transition is what I have been experiencing - and as I settle into it I've found that loneliness is being replaced by a sense of purpose and joy in learning and satisfaction in living a much more simple, mindful life.

I do hope to post again soon; about my new grain mill that Hubby bought for our anniversary from Marci at Amazing Graze Store, about experimenting with sourdough, about our searching for a solution to a leak in our berm home - a creative solution. If you get to wondering about me, please just say a prayer for us and trust that He is working in our lives and we are spending the time seeking that growth. And you can always send me a little note via the comments or my email... (smiles to my friends)!

With much love to all of you,

P.S. My sister-in-law's family is still waiting on a check from the insurance company and living in their garage. Also, please pray for Chris who is Molly's dad. He has been in very bad health since three days after the tornado and is still in the hospital.